A whole new meaning

     Before Emma was born my life was meaningless. I searched for unconditional love in all the wrong places so when God gave me Emma he knew what he was doing. I was on the edge and at one point even attempted suicide. So when Emma was born I promised myself I'd never be like my mom and abandon my child.
     I remember at 4 years old(same age as Emma) while I was at my Grandparents house sitting in front of the t.v. eating popcorn as my Mom walked out on me and my 2 brothers. We cried and begged her to stay but she left and my heart was shattered. The image was very vivid. I'd never want Emma to ever go through that.
     Emma has taught me so much about love more than anyone has ever in my life. I'm thankful that my suicide attempt failed because Emma would not be here either to show me life is so much more than what I thought. Emma's love has no conditions. My heart is beyond full because of Emma we have this connection that's just unexplainable.
     Emma is beautiful inside and out. I may be biased but everything about her is perfect for her beautiful brown hair to her green eyes and then there's her perfect smile. I have literally created the perfect child.
   

Intoduction

As I must introduce myself, my name is Heaven Vandever. I am 24 years old. I have a 4 year old named Emma Marie. She is my whole world and my life revolves around her. I am a bit new at this blogging thing but very excited to start blogging and sharing my life with you. I am engaged to the love of my life right now. We have been together 2 years and I couldn't be more happier with him. My life may not be picture perfect right now but it do believe it is getting better.

Emma Marie

So today with my 4 year old Emma Marie we got to make slime. Pretty cool huh? Well its very simple too. All you do is mix glue, tide laundry detergent, and food coloring and BAM! There you have it slime! Emma loved it. She said it felt like boogers. She says some of the silliest stuff. For example the other day she asked me while we were outside "Why does the wind keep pushing me?" Hahaha. I know! I know....totally off topic but now you see why I love my baby girl so much. She's amazing.